Ruffianne Brutus, CDX, CGC, TDI

mother of Essi, faithful friend to Heidi

4/14/1987 to 2/2/02

.......She is missed......

**goodbye poem below**

Bred by Richard Richards

At 13 years above

at 5 years above

at 14 years above

at 7 years

My heart, it rebels.

Do not go! I silently yell


To no avail

Do my words reach

Life is frail

And in the breach


Her breathing is laboured

Her heart says no

Her body cries release

She must go


My eyes, an ocean

My heart, a desert

My soul cries for surcease

Oh Lord, how could you?


Shivering on the floor

Muscles weakened

Life is ebbing

Iím going off the deep end


My lifeline, she answers

In the midst of a young oneís needs

Bring her over, she says

We must stop this lifeís bleed


In agonal edge

I carry her in

Death does not budge

He always must win


She passes over the threshold

To lifeís new reward

Nothing is up my sleeve

I canít play that card


She will always be my friend

I will miss her grin

But a butterfly will come my way

On a warm summer day.

-Heidi 2/2/2

A special thanks to Dr Franck for being there at the drop of a hat, and comforting me through her death, and making sure her journey was as pain free as possible.  God Bless.

Author Unknown

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
The sun will rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
Remembering how I'd lay my head
In your lap that special way.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me.
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And petted me with her hand.
She said my place was ready,
In Heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But, as I turned to heel away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I never thought
That I would have to die.

I had so much to live for,
So many sits and downs to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought about our lives together,
I know you must be sad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
Remember how I'd nudge your hand,
And poke you with my nose?
The frisbee I would gladly chase,
The bad guy, I'd "bark and hold".

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd wag my tail and kiss you,
Just so I could see you smile.
But, then I fully realized,
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Will take the place of me.
And when I thought of treats and toys,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
My dog-heart filled with sorrow.

But then I walked through Heaven's gate,
And felt so much at home;
As God looked down and smiled at me,
From His beautiful golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity,
And now we welcome you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
For you see, each days's the same day,
There's no longing for the past.
Now you have been so faithful,
So trusting, loyal and true;
Though there were times you did things,
You knew you shouldn't do.
But good dogs are forgiven,
And now at last you're free;
So won't you sit here by my side,
And wait right here with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right there, in your heart.


Updated 04/03/07


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